I am not sure how to put into words how I feel. The day I got my approval letter I was so happy. Then, an hour later I had a panic attack. Literally. I haven't had a full-blown panic attack in years. How could I be so happy and so scared at the same time? I am terrified that I will gain weight and she won't do the surgery. My stomach hurts all the time. I am upset so I am hungry but I don't want to eat. There is this constant battle in my head. I think about all the great things that will...