Hi August Band Buddies!
I'm so happy we have *this place* to come and "discuss" how we are feeling and what's going on. In as much as I can't wait to start sharing success stories, I think that sharing our feelings (with people who understand and who are going through the very same steps) during these days and weeks leading up to having the procedure are critical! Just knowing that others are having similar feelings is so comforting and reassuring! Up until now, the time and energy that I devoted to this journey was so much about getting through each step so that I could be approved and scheduled. For months, I had a very clear mission! My focus never strayed from it. Now that I accomplished that goal (thank GOD!), there's time to think.
As much as I want to have this surgery, I do have "are you crazy Judi?" moments. Soon, they spiral into panic-anxiety terror attacks! Now, I don't have a lot of them. But, sometimes they just creep up on me. And, when they do....I feel like I can't be thinking about ME. It's like I am watching a movie about someone else! Having this surgery is not something I would have ever suspected I would do. Even as recent as 2 years ago, if anyone would have asked me if I would EVER have weight loss surgery, I would have looked at them like they were CRAZY. And, even now, sometimes I get this weird feeling that I am not really going to do it. Probably because it feels so foreign to me. But then I pop back into the real world and realize that "yes, I am doing this".
Between now and August 10 (my band date!), I have to get through several social events and our annual 2 week beach vacation. As my weight has increased, my desire to just stay home has increased as well! And, I am a very social person! Just goes to show how incredibly life altering weight can be! The thought of figuring out what to wear on a daily basis is bad enough! But, coming up with an outfit that doesn't scream "trying to hide my stomach" for social events is a little too much! And, of course, that's just a small piece of the problem! There's the BIG problem of the pre-op liquid diet.....starting the 2nd week I am on vacation! Yes, I know that gin and wine are liquids. And, of course, margaritas and all umbrella topped beach drinks fit that category. But, we all know what I am talking about....THE PRE-OP LIQUID DIET!!!! With that issue lurking in my brain, the problem of my bathing suit being the size of a beach umbrella gets shoved to the back burner! Of course, I suppose I could look at the liquid diet as a blessing....I won't have to worry about what I'll wear each night to a restaurant! I can just stay back at our beach house in my moo-moo and watch the waves hit the sand while I sip on a protein laced margarita.....
But, then, I guess I will have to think about how much fun I will have and how absolutely stunning I will look in my tent-like bathing suit as I lower my body into my beach chair......:faint:
Keep the faith August Band buddies! I'm counting on *YOU* to help me keep mine!!!!
Dr. Davidson 
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