Guilt

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So I did it. I ate 2 peices of pizza for lunch today. I let the craving win over. I am ashamed I did it. Once again I gave into gluttony. The pizza wasnt even that good. I dont get the same "feelings" I use to from eating that I did before being banded. I feel like Ive eaten a rock. No nothing feels stuck, but I just feel heavy. Ive been doing so good too. Im just dissapointed in myself. Im down 40 pounds, and I feel like I am at a stand still. Ive tried to shake things up and change up my routine. Im at a loss, and Im just feeling guilty about what I just consumed. I thought I had this head hunger craving thing taken care of, it seems that it has creeped back up on me. I guess its back to reality tonight for dinner. Who do I think I am? I keep having to tell myself you are a fat girl in recovery, you cant allow those feelings to take you over. Look what happens when you do! Im just venting. I know there are people out here that are in the same shoes as I am. Any words of wisdom would be appreciated. Thanks for reading...

Don't be so hard on yourself, honey. Everyone slips sometimes and overall you are doing a GREAT job!! It's really part of learning to eat and live totally differently. And look how much you learned too - it wasn't even that good! It did not help like it did before you got banded! All very great signs! Plus you've lost a TON of weight too. I'd say you are doing terrific and you had a slip. Oh well, that's part of life! So call it a learning experience, dust yourself off and begin again tomorrow. It's really OK. You are forgiven!! Now forgive yourself and do something to help someone else for pennance and move on! OK? OK!!

Allis, what's done is done. Take it as a lesson learned and get right back up on that horse! You're doing great!

Allis, forgive me in advance, I probably missed something here, but that's normal for me, LOL, but when were you banded?

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Banded: Dec 6, 2004