Librasings

I have had my lap band since Nov. 2005. I started at 245 now, I am 209. This is the weight I was when I gave birth to my son. I started at 150 and gained up to 205 about. (my son is 30)
The weight I lost has been good, I am in much better control of what I can and can't eat.
My lap band is working, it lets me know when I have had enough. I did not enter into this thinking I would be a size two. But, I am learning that you have to change and that is not easy.
I was injured at work, and since being on SSD I have no structure to my days.
This is a big problem for me. Because I am really not hungry, but I am on my husbands schedule. He works from 1:30 P.M. to 9:30 P.M.
So we sleep late, I make him breakfast at noon. I usually get up first, I make myself a large drink first thing. I rather have a 16oz cup of coffee with skin milk, or a protein drink.
My husband has dinner when he gets home. I do not like to eat at 10P.M.
My problem is grazing, not because I am hungry just because it is an activity in my day. I know this, and even if I eat little bits of things that go down, like ice pops, or fruit, or sunflower seeds, it more to keep my hands busy, then because I need to eat.
I know I have good months and bad. I have stayed around the same weight for the past four months. But, because I do exercise, my treadmill, aerobics and stretching, my size keeps getting smaller. I have never lost weight easily.
I am happy with the Lap Band because I know it is helping me not gain weight and if I lose 20 pounds over a year, for the next few years, that is a plus. I'm not sure if anyone else has had this experience.
I have not had that many fills, my husband and I recently had to move, so we were busy packing and getting ready for a few months. Now that I am settled in, its been difficult to make new friends. So I'm in transistion.
I look forward to continuing to feel good and being able to do more.
I help to stay focused by doing self-hypnosis. I do positive affirmation.
I will succeed, I respect my lap band, I will make better choices, and will handle adversity with eaze. This four affirmations help me to stay focused.
Hope to find someone with similar situation.
Barb