Re: a different perspective... | |
you're right. it's a slower process than we all expected. but i think it's a good thing. i think it's giving my body a chance to get used to each level of weight loss rather than plunging down. it also feels like it will stay off this time. i have been successful, but i don't consider myself a success just yet. i am scared to death that this isn't forever. i am buying clothes that are in the front of my closet, dreading the day when they might be at the back, never to fit again. I haven't been a size 12 in 20 years and i almost can't believe it.
i have lost just over 50 pounds since surgery April 1st. i am within a few pounds of my doctor's goal; within 15 pounds of where i want my highest point of a realistic range to be. another 20 would be best. i am looking forward to somewhere seeing the words "results not typical" associated with my success.
you are right. this is a slower process than we all thought. but that's ok. it really is. i think the physiological restriction is something that will never change. as long as i stick with the right foods, i will be ok. i also think, seeing as surgery was a last option for me, and being a self pay client, i have more invested in this than ever before. how much of a failure would i be if i let this opportunity slip away from me? i feel incredibly lucky to have this chance and i am not going to blow it for anything. i am feeling SO much better and everything i put on is big on me and people are starting to notice and although the attention is a bit uncomfortable, i am so much more comfortable. i almost can't believe how wonderful things are compared to january 2009. a truly new year. |