Hi allure...
I did read about the support group meeting in DUB, maybe I'll PM holly to find out more.
I just want to say something to you. Get the fear that the band won't work out of your head. That's your current or previous self (the one who keeps regaining) trying to trick you into thinking you will fail so that it can have it's bingeing back!!
I am the secret eater too...I eat in the car almost non stop. If I am home alone I have hidden crap for my private party too.
Having the band in is not going to change any of this. It will make your portions smaller but it won't stop you grazing or eating stuff that you shouldn't or have hoped you wouldn't.
You are not alone in your behaviour allure...Just know that.
You have to make this time more about the behaviour & understanding why you turn to food when you do. Don't put all your focus into it being another diet & what the scales is gonna do after monday.
I tell you thins because like you I lost 7 stone on my last attempt and it absolutely broke my heart & spirit to gain that back.
I couldn't face loosing it again..I went about it numerous ways and I just hadn't the heart to face it again.
So I began working on what was going on with me, getting to know myself, my triggers & patterns. I made lists of what worked & what didn't work. I also got very real about what if anything I could possibly be getting out of maintaining my fatness & I actually came up with answers. I never believed that I could be benefitting from it, but I was. I had placed a lot of importance on negative things like it not being fair & comparing myself to others.
A lot of soul searching really, until I decided to have the band & that I was in the right frame of mind for it.
I found a very good book too...called THIN FOR LIFE by Anne Fletcher.. It's all about people like us who yoyo'd forever but profiles those who finally got to the bottom of things, got it right & maintained their final attempts.
there's a lot of talk on here about bandster hell...banders seem to get it between surgery & the first fill. They all describe it as having no restriction & that they're starving & desperate & eating too much or the wrong things.
Be very wary of this in your thoughts, don't let it happen.. it is as much a frame of mind as anything. Don't let yourself believe you won't succeed or that you are relying solely on the band. You are obviously a very experienced & successful dieter and there's no doubt you can do this for the last time & learn this time from your history.
Don't try to be perfect, and find out why you regained each time. That is the key. for me, one thing I have always done when dieting was my all or nothing perfectionist attitude. I would BAN EVERYTHING and make it almost impossible not to fail. When I would "go off the tracks with whatever little thing it was, that was it. Licence for an all out binge & eventual collapse. Then I would eat ANYTHING!!!!
I'm sorry if I'm being a bore but this is something you really need to work on...your self. Forget the number on the scales.
Check out that book on amazon and if you haven't already heard of the motivation weight loss clinics check out
www.mla.ca ... that programme has books & tapes on motivation, behaviour & emotions & all that.
We'll keep in touch too...Did you say you're in Dublin? Where?
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