Negative thoughts here...

greyhoundmom · 08-03-2008, 09:20 AM

hi all! i feel a lot like you do fluffy cat. i just went grocery shopping the end of last week and bought some good stuff so i can cook (healthy stuff but i can cook again - as i haven't been so much - my husband has been having take out or frozen meals while i try to figure out what i can/should eat!). i was surprised to find i wanted to cook! then i had my nutritionist appointment last thursday and she suggested another fill - for me that means 4 days of liquids so i won't be able to cook after all! for at least this coming week - my 2nd fill will be monday afternoon.

i think we can still cook and enjoy our food - just in a different way. it's something we have to learn and get used to. it's nice that we have to go slowly with eating - because i find that i savor what i eat a lot more than i used to - and i look forward to it even if it's just a small amount!

when i want to eat something and i start and my band says stop, i find i get frustrated because i want to eat more of what i'm eating - not even a lot 1 cup instead of 3/4 cup! but then i think, well it's doing its job then i feel better mentally.

stress and boredom definately lead me to want to eat. i have the 100 calorie snack pack cookies and i take my time and have one of those. it helps. and it's only 100 calories. as long as i limit myself to 1 pack. it is a learning experience that's for sure! for boredom i try to distract myself by doing something (can be very hard when you are in that 'i don't feel like doing anything' mode). for stress, i try a small treat like the 100 calorie cookies or a sugar free pudding cup. i should/will eventually learn not to think of eating in these situations, but i'm not there yet.

oh, and i find almost 8 weeks out after banding, i'm still pretty moody. my husband totally puts up with me thankfully. i agree pridej we have to think of ourselves during this transition period until all this becomes '2nd nature' which i hope it will eventually!

mstrina27 · 08-03-2008, 09:31 AM

u know i was going to post something about this today.... I have had 2-fills and my first fill came with my band. Now i do have a restriction, but this is truly a mind over matter thing... and u have to workout... My elliptical trainer broke and i am so upset that it did because i can't workout like i want to. I have been stuck for the past month or so. I know there is more i can do at home to get myself back in order and i will do just that but at this point i have 6cc's in a 10cc band and i hope that by the time i get my next fill i will only be able to eat a bite her and a bite there so i can start to loose weight like i want to... i know it might now be healthy but damn... i never imagined it would be this slow... I know the health risk with the weight coming off too fast with gallstones and stuff but this is crazy... just hold in there because i am going to do the same and just start to make better food choices and get some sort of excercise in and or start going back to the gym at least 3-days out of the week.... something has to give.... keep yr head up.. we are all in this together....

fluffycat · 08-04-2008, 09:06 AM

I am so looking forward to my fill!!! Hopefully, I will go back to what I was like after surgery. No hunger desires! Didn't want to eat, didn't think about eating. Now that was great.

slinderella2b · 08-04-2008, 09:14 AM

Barb I am so sorry your feeling thsi way. I am on the other hand the total opposite I mean when I am stressed I will NOT eat, or if I am upset I will NOT eat. I am having marriage problems and yesterday I hardly ate at all which I think is worse my body starts to go in starvation mode :( It's a catch 22 for me at times!
I hope things get better for you.

For me after my 2.7 fill I have no restriction at all :( so I have to wait till my next fill I guess, I keep saying this is a PROCESS and I have to deal with it is all...good luck to all of you!!!