Hey been a while....
I was banded Last February and did amazing until about June. Then I started slowly realizing that I have no restriction even with fills. So with all the summer vacations, trips to Grandma's cabin and Camping...I started slowly but surely to get back to the same old bad habits of before LB life. In August I went in for the fourth fill and after the previous two painful fills(1st one was fine), this one was by far the worst!
VERY painful! She hit a blood vessel so I started squirting blood...it was terrible. It was decided that my port had flipped and I will be getting a new one next Friday. I feel like I am starting over! I have been so discouraged...I ate so badly for the last couple of months and now I am trying to get back on track and really struggling! Luckily I haven't gained anything since June but I haven't lost any either.
To be honest after getting back on here after being away for months...I am realizing that I never have had restriction. I mean I can't eat like I used to but I can eat way more than I should be able to. I try to make the right choices and stop after small portions but if I was good at that on my own I wouldn't have needed help in the first place lol!
So any positive words you have for me I would love. Plus by posting I feel a little more accountable! I need to get back into the shrink and join the local support group. I really need help in the head
for the body!
Thank you!
~A
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