I need Help/words of wisdom/someone to listen who can understand what I am going through.
First some background. I was banded 8/13/08. I have been having some troubles with my fills for awhile. Every time I went for a fill when they would draw back the fluid to check the volume, I would have way less than what should be in there. At first we were not concerned because sometimes you can't get it all out, but at this point if I had every cc that they had put in I would have over 12cc's in a realize (9cc) band. (I wouldn't be able to swallow my own spit!) Throughout all this, up until the last couple of months I have been doing fine weight loss wise. I have lost over 50 pounds and gone from a size 24 or 26 to a size 18. Not so much anymore, since January 2nd I have only lost 10 pounds.
Today, they injected contrast dye into my port to check for a leak and you guessed it I have a leak. I kind of knew that I must have a leak although I was hoping for not and I had prepared myself (sort of as much as I could) for the possibilty that they might have to replace my port. But, the leak is not in my port or tubing it is in my actual band. And, even though I thought I was prepared for bad news I really wasn't and I really wasn't expecting this. I am devestated. I am scared. I have worked so hard to get this far.
So now I don't know what to do. I feel real good after a fill for about 3 1/2 weeks, then I lose that comfortable feeling and go back to struggleing with increased hunger. Better than before the surgery, but not like when I have a good fill. At that point when they check the volume before my fill I usually have about 2-2.5cc's. So, I am faced with a decision do I could continue with the way things are now, keep getting fills and just lose really slow, (But my doctor is a little concerned about doing fills too frequently, secondary to the risk of infection) and see how things go, or do I just replace the band? If I just replace the band how does that work? I am at a point where I would no longer qualify for the surgery and as of April 1st my insurance has changed. I know that the new insurance covers LAP-BAND® surgery but where I had the surgery under another insurance company and I don't weigh enough anymore do I even stand a chance of them covering a new surgery? Oh god, I am so sad and scared. Any advice/words of wisdom would really be appreciated.
P.S. As if all this were not enough, I ran over my own cat last night. We don't know if she is going to make it. I am just a basket case right now. I can't stop crying. Everything is getting to me.

