Desperate for restriction!!

TxChelsey · 07-09-2008, 10:43 PM

Surely this must be the 9th circle of bandster hell!! I was banded a little over 3 months ago (13 weeks) and had my first SMALL fill 6 weeks ago. I have pretty much NO restriction and have 2 more weeks to go until my second fill. This day cannot come fast enough! I feel that overall, I am doing well. I've been working out 3-5 times a week, going to Weight Watchers religiously, and making good food choices, most of the time. But, inevitably, I have those days when I just want to eat everything. This week, I have had 3 of them, including today. Good times! I have had a ridiculous amount of food and am thinking about the next thing I am going to put in my mouth as we speak. Tomorrow, I will be disgusted with myself and go back to the gym and get on track, but it will probably take 2-3 days of working out just to offset today's munchfest. These are the days that have facilitated my colossal weight gain and these are the days I really need a working band!! I don't want to be able to eat this much and I don't want to feel hungry. I feel guilty because I know I am supposed to be eating small portions, and somedays, I'm just not. Deliberatley disobeying doctor's orders and maybe even putting my health at risk!! I assume that because everything goes down and I feel normal, I am okay. Could I be setting myself up for future problems by overeating?? I just want some restriction and I want this day to be over so I can start damage control tomorrow. Who still overeats after going through all the trouble of weight loss surgery?? Apparently, I do.

Ang1982 · 07-09-2008, 11:02 PM

All I can say is hang in there girl and don't get too discouraged (much easier said than done). Keep going to WW and the gym. You are smack dab in the middle of "Bandster Hell" and believe me I know how awful it is. I would see if in the future you can schedule your fills a bit closer together. Personally when I go for a fill before I leave the office I make my next appointment regardless of if I know I will need it or not that way in the 4 weeks or so I will know I can get in.

Hang in there, you're doing great!

TxChelsey · 07-11-2008, 09:18 AM

Thanks a bunch. I am trying to stay motivated, it is just such a struggle somedays. I have called my surgeons office THREE TIMES since my first fill and they won't see me any earlier. They have a strict 2 month wait policy after the first fill. I will be scheduling the third before I leave the office, just in case!

ccm · 07-11-2008, 02:31 PM

Somedays the struggle seems so hard and others days I am at the top of the world and I think nothing can stop me now

When I reached a stand still at 250 lbs for 6 weeks I thought this was it, this is as low as I can go. I got over that and now I think 220 is as low as I can go. Our minds play such trips on us. At the end of June I ate non stop crap for three days and the end result was of course a large weight gain.(It has taken me untill today to loose that gain.) All the thoughts of failure, what have I done, I've spent all our money on this very expensive DIET and now it's not working what the hell am I going to do. My daughter told me in a loving way of course to "Suck it up Buttercup" and not to let the scale run my life or to dictate how I feel on a day to day basis. Such a smart girl. All I can do is live day to day and hope that one good day leads to another and when I do have a bad eating day (and I have had them and I will continue to do so sometimes) I can get back up and move forward. This band I have helps me get back up when I am down, but I too have to help it in any way I can in order for us to work effectively as a team.

Sorry this is long and rambley but I just wanted you to know that I too fall off the wagon and overeat crap but it really is possible to get back on track. I have not weighed this little since 25 years ago. The head hunger is very hard to controll and remember even with proper restriction it is still possible to eat crap so take it one day at a time and you will get there

cc

FeliciaLevy75 · 07-11-2008, 09:49 PM

Restriction won't change the foods you eat, so if you find yourself eating too much, focus on eating healthy foods. Distract yourself when you feel hungry between meals. Drink plenty of water. Focus on your choices, your control. You can do this.

Also, try finding out why the strict "no-fills between fills" rule. The band is meant to serve a specific purpose, and a doctor that won't support that purpose is working against the band. I have had one small fill and feel no restriction. I called today and they are fitting me in next week, 2 weeks before my scheduled fill. We'll keep the original appointment, too, just so we can evaluate the 2nd fill and determine the need, if any, for a third.

If you aren't happy, research your options (i.e. fills with someone else).

Good luck.

jazie · 07-11-2008, 10:12 PM

For some reason I thought Weight Watchers would be too much food for us to eat after the band. Could you give me a little more info on it? I am sure it would be further down the line, I had my band 7/1/08, so I am still on the second stage.
jazie