2 wks till banding - anxiety galore!

KarenH

Hello bandsters! 2 weeks from today (the 25th) I am scheduled for surgery. I had a pre-op physical, ab u.s., lab work, upper g.i., chest xray, surgerical
consult and on Monday I have a stress echo (thanks to my personal doc who I just happen to work for - she's VERY cautious/conservative) Each day I say, "This is the right thing for me. I have researched it, talked about, and worked towards it." I also have a mini meltdown each time I think about how I have failed in the past so many times, does this surgery confirm all my failures? I sit here crying as I write this. My struggle (as so many of the people I have read on this site) has been long and hard. Up and down. My father passed away in March from every complication there is from diabetes. I have recently been diagnosed with diabetes. I know I am headed down the same path as he. I don't want to be model thin. I am, quite frankly, too old for that, but young enough to still want to enjoy biking, hiking, camping and living life without worrying about my weight all the time!

I so appreciate this web site. I have read so many "testimonials" and appreciate everyone's perspective - negative and positive. This site has
educated me on so many things that are not covered in seminars, nutritionist visits, or doctor's visits. I am going into this with my eyes wide open, but I am still anxious.

Sorry if I sound redundant, whiny, or needy. I am sure I will be on a roller coaster ride until the 25th and possibly thereafter. I am also so excited to feel like I will finally have some control on my over eating!

Thanks to everyone for sharing. It makes me feel like I have many friends who have my same experiences and emotions!

Thanks to you all. Karen