I am in mourning...

Aimze · 09-02-2005, 07:53 PM

You see I have lost my best friend.. I have never had a friend that did not judge me, Loved me no matter what. THis friend was always there for me, to celebrate the good times to cry over the bad times.Supported me in everything I ever did.
I can not recall a time or place or family occasion where my friend was not a BIG part of.

My friend took on many shapes in my life and has many names...
Candy, cake, chips, Fried food.Big portions. Etc< Etc

I will mourn for my loss as it is all I had ever known,

But now I will learn a new way of life without my friend, my crutch. FOOD

I really am mourning food.. But I am only 5 days out from being banded and I have so much to learn about my new friend ( The Band) I will name it at some point. Just waiting to see its personality...lol

Sorry all I had to write this as i am hungry today. and not in a great mood and would have normally turned to eating. Instead I turned to writing this...

Thanks

Amy

the best me · 09-02-2005, 08:37 PM

Good job Amy. There is, indeed, a mourning for the loss of food the way it used to be. Your friendship will change and grow in ways you cannot predict. But it will be better. You won't be so dependant. Food won't be so demanding a friend. Your relationship will be better in the end. (((((((hugs)))))))))

divaliciousdee · 09-02-2005, 08:46 PM

I feel ya. I am in mourning to I suppose. All of my good and bad times food was a big part. I have to totlly get a grip. I will suceed with my band..I will name her Betsy.

Pacomomma · 09-04-2005, 08:32 PM

I named my band after my ex and I were in court he asked me out to lunch and I told him I was involved with someone. when he asked who I told him his name was brad. Brad Band ,my new best friend. LOL

NJChick · 09-04-2005, 08:42 PM

Sweet Amy, so many of us know exactly what you are saying, even us that are not banded yet. Lots of times I think about how I will get through this Christmas when everyone is celebrating the usual way and I won't be allowed to.

I can only pray for strength and iI have to remember, life is worth more than some cakes or cookies. I believe in our struggles, the end results will taste so much better than any thing you can put on a plate :D

HUGS TO YOU !!!!
Your gonna do wonderful :)

divaliciousdee · 09-04-2005, 08:44 PM

Eileen 2 more days girlfriend you will be talking with the man!!! Whoo Hoo! Then soon after you will be banded and headed with me toward our brick house bodies!!!

Aimze · 09-04-2005, 09:27 PM

Thanks everyone. I kew you all would understand..
Isnt so hard to think of things like the holidays. How will I celebrate thanksgiving this year. I will be In South Carolina with my best friend and they are big eaters of course thin. But they eat things like liverwurst and cheddar on crackers as snacks... LOL

I know what it all tastes like so thats what I keep telling myself...

Good luck in you journey Eileen.
You will be banded before you know it..
Amy

sunnykim · 09-04-2005, 10:04 PM

Its is hard when suddenly food isnt there anymore. I havent been thru a big holiday yet but i know i will be ok... Good luck!!!

Kim

RayLandry · 09-04-2005, 10:48 PM

Aimze,

I know exactly where a you are comung from! At times,I go thru little spells of depression, but then I realize that I will be so much better off. I know that I am really going to miss the old friend now that football season has begun!! For me watching my Cowboys always meant pizza, nachos, chips, soda, wings etc.... and LOTS OF IT!!

Ray
8/9/05
280/259/180
Fort Worth, TX

giveyouthemoon · 09-04-2005, 11:03 PM

My band is named Katrinka. I got this from Jack calling his band a "little silicone fist". I visualize her like a little Russian ballerina. Delicate, powerful. And when I PB'd a week ago, petulant and stamping her little foot "nyet!" lol. Okay, I'm a writer so of course I had to give her a whole story.

I also mourn food. I wish when I was bored I could just eat. It was always a great way to pass the time. I wish when I was sad I could eat and eat lots. For some reason that oh so full feeling always gave me comfort. But I cannot and some days I reel in desperation. But I've learned that this is a day by day process. Today it may go easy, tomorrow the roughest thing I've known. I learn. And slowly I'm breaking that bond I had to food.

It was a friend for a lot of years, but it was a bad friend. It made me feel good for a few moments then turned on me and made me feel bad, very bad. And you know what, I deserve a better friend than that. And her name is Katrinka.

NJChick · 09-05-2005, 07:19 AM

Thanks Everyone :D

Amy, I have decided to avoid situations this year that will put me infront of big tables loaded with goodies. I've already told my DH that I will not be cooking any thing but the normal thanksgiving dinner, which is turkey and stuffing...thats it. Do you remember the movie the nutty professor with eddy murphy??? well remember what their dinner table looked like??? thats exactly what the holidays look like in my house. This year, its gonna be simple, very simple.

Usually at work we have party after party for Christmas. Guess who's gonna fake being sick for most of them. :D :D :D I really don't want to put myself in those situations right off the bat if you know what I mean. Besides, there's always next year when I can enjoy a nibble or 2 with them.

Dee Dee its a strange feeling meeting this man. I'm so nervous, like I'm going on a job interview and I want this job in the worst way LOL. I went thru all those things in my signature w/no problem but tomorrow while I'm driving to his office, I know I'm gonna have the hershey squirts LOLOL.

You mean I'm NOT a brick house already (HAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAA) jk
That lady's stacked and its a fact ~~~~~~
THANK YOU Dee Dee ;)

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