12 Steps of Overeaters Anonymous

I am glad I found this thread. I never knew there were OA support groups out there. I have signed up this morning for an on-line support group. I am attending an online meeting this morning.

I am very nervous because I have never admitted this to anyone before. I know this is going to be an emotional roller coaster ride for me and I hope I can be strong and deal with my problems.

This forum has been so helpful to me. Thanks so much for adding it. It gives me hope :)

Just wanted to say- I am banded and feeing great. It has been done and I am not sorry that i did. Now....the journey begins.


KatW

congrats on your band Kat :)

HI everyone,
I haven't been to OA for about 4-5 years, I am planning to start with a meeting and a sponser here in Sac this week. Wish me luck!

I still find myself waffling on Step 1 - sometimes I'm absolutely sure I have no control over my compulsions, sometimes I'm too stubborn to admit it.

I'm having some major problems with Step 2 this week. I have been having the most horrifying thoughts of telling God to get out of my way - I've never done that before. I really am a mule-head. I refused to go to church Sunday because I wanted to clean my house. I told myself that the choir music is boring, nobody cares, I don't know that many people at church anyway, yadda yadda yadda. My group meeting this week was all about "letting go and letting God", believe it or not. Coincidence? The strangest thing is - I know how to do that, and I've done it before. Unfortunately, I always seem to grab my personal crap back and stubbornly try to handle it all myself because "it's my responsibility".
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Maybe I should move on to Step 3, and start taking a good, long look at who I really am. Sometimes when I do that, I can finally deal with it. It's kinda like when I realized some of the major factors driving my compulsions, then my compulsive eating stopped being so much fun. And yet - I find myself not wanting to give up that part of me yet. I get something out of my compulsive eating I'm not quite willing to completely let go of yet. I crave the unconsciousness of it, the escape from my lousy life, the carb and sugar highs.

I hate this disease. I hate the aloneness of it. I hate not feeling "normal". I hate being "broken". Most of all, I hate being fat.

Hugs,
Donna
Compulsive Overeater

Wow Donna, your post really touched me, I saw a lot of myself in it.

Weight problems go so much deeper then people give credit for. I've stopped going to church, heck I've even questioned God, my faith and everything I've believed my whole life. I know most of this insecurity and uncertainty comes from my weight. I've never been like this before.

I am a spiritual Christian. I go to church about half the time these days. I know I am a compulsive overeater. My question is: specifically how is God going to stop my behavior. What do I need to do with my faith in order to trust God to fix my behavior.

donna, my thoughts and prayers are with you even though i find that i dont do nearly enough anymore. praying that is. your post touched me also and sounded so much like how i feel. thing is, theres a whole bunch of US out there. maybe we can all help each other and just maybe thats how GOD gets back in the picture...........my computers on the blink and i have really missed getting on here and seeing how every one is doing. should be up and running next week i hope cause if i am out of touch with you all i dont seem to do as well myself. hope to talk again soon and everyone try and stay positive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!jenhay

Fluffycat,

This coming from someone who is stuggling so much may sound hypocritical, but I think what we all have to do in order to "let go and let God" is SUBMIT. That word has a lot of Biblical connotations, many of which really rub me the wrong way as a woman. When I think about submitting, I think of falling to my knees and saying "Ok, Lord, I give it all to you." Now, that's scary, especially for me because I have major trust issues stemming from previous relationships and marriage. Every now and then I can do it, when I'm feeling particularly weak and tired and helpless. But somehow, when God does lend His helping hand to me and gives me strength, I suddenly tell Him "go away, I can do this myself," like some stubborn two-year-old. Back to square one. Again. And again.

Submitting is so against everything I've ever learned in life.

Hugs,
Donna

Jenhay - thank you so much for the prayers!!!

Hugs,
Donna

Life is tuff but God is tuffer. Let's all pray for each other and enjoy God's roller coaster.

Kudos to that, MyTurn.

hey, where did everyone go? my computer has been back at the factory for over a week now and i have missed out on so much. just want to hear from some one. jenhay.

Hello DOnna;
Thanks for your honest post. I'll read more later