I needed a place to vent... so why not here. I am scheduled to have my lapband surgery on 11-9. Should be excited, right? Wrong... I feel upset with myself. When I initially started researching the band, I knew it was for me because I am a BIG uncontrolled portion eater. Carbs all day every day. So I began my jouney... Well I think deep down inside, I thought I could still do this on my own. I can work out a lot, can be very enthusiastic. But after trying again.. I failed. failed cuz I just can...