Hello all, I' am very new to this. Never have been on a blog before.
I' am in the process of getting approved for banding. Just waiting on my Insurance. co.
Does anyone have Bluecross & Blueshield
Insurance and did you have any trouble with them.??
Thanks

I have started on a journey. A journey that will lead to more than just permanent weight loss. I am traveling to improve the quality of my life...maybe even save it at the rate I am going. As I lament the fact that I must endure yet another 5 months in stasis as I complete the required 6 month managed diet prior to insurance approval, I find that I maybe accepting the premise that this too is part of my process. Anything truly worthwhile is worth the effort, the organization, the planning, and yes.. even the waiting.
I lost myself and then covered myself up with extra weight again. It is not the first time, but it is going to be the last. I am going to find me under all of this weight.. my shield...my self punishment... and when I do....the weight will truly be lifted from inside and out and I will never be here again.
Here is to the process.....

Grr.. GRRRR! Ok... i had to get that out! My father a Mexican Archie Bunker.. Is a unpleasant man. In looking back to my childhood to now... I realized.. He is part of the reason why I ate so much. He is a mean,negative,self centered, vain man. And guess what...thats his bag of problems and not mine!

He constantly picks on me,berates me,puts me down.. (imagine your nickname being "heavy" for 32 yrs?..yea not fun)

I was banded on June 23rd..I am down 21 lbs since surgery..I am eating way under 1200 cals a day.

However when I sat down to eat some lunch ...3 forkfuls of salmon and a baked potato. My father told me I was "stuffing my face"..and "why bother getting banded if you are going to eat whatever anyways"

Well I am SICK OF IT. He has not supported me AT ALL. Only my poor mother. Jesus my poor mother...she must have hit her head the day she decided to marry him...or been drugged....

I have tried to talk to him about the bandster life..but he just keeps talking over me making fun of me.. Im 32 yrs old..and this mean prick is 62 yrs old.

I can love my father..does not mean I have to like him.

I decided I will NEVER share this part of my life with him again. This includes not eating in front of him and never breaking bread with him ever again.

I refuse to feel upset, funny, because I sit here and cry while I write all of this . Im STRONG. Stronger than him.. because he could never do what I do.

Next year I am going to be in Onederland...

And where is he going to be?...

Yep folks thats right.. OLD.:tt2:

:biggrin:ok so..i have took the 1st step to changeing my life and getting the lap band...i have to say i have never been so scared in my life...its like all my life i have been over weight and now there is an answer that works to help me..i went to see my doc and she did are these test..she said have to take iron pills for an month then i have to see her again....but today the lap- band doc called and told me that my ins. will cover it as long as i do what they said...so i have to get an sleep thing done and then some other stuff....i never thought in an million years i would be getting this done...:wub:
i am so glad to have great friends who are there for me..they have gave me the push i need...always telling me to just stick with it...i feel like they are my angel's helping me ...:thumbup:
i am just so happy!!!

Today I accomplished a major milestone for me. I rode my bike to work with was over 8 miles. It took me approximately 45 minutes with one stop for a drink of water.

I really didn't think I could do it. First, I tried to talk myself out of it thinking I'd be too sweaty, and look terrible all day at work which is not optimal at my job. Then one of my co-workers rode and challenged me to. I'm a sucker for a challenge so this morning I woke up, took a shower, packed my backback with a knit dress that wouldn't wrinkle and a pair of sandals. Threw in my blow dryer and curling iron, deoderant, mascara and lipgloss and took off with wet hair under my bike helmet before I could talk myself out of it.

The ride was amazing! I had no idea there were so many people on the trail at 6:30 in the morning? Who knew? I passed joggers, walkers, fellow bikers, the running team from a local highschool, a mommy with baby in tow. It made me feel so alive.


Just about the time I hit the downtown area I ran into some mud but with a washcoth in my backback I was set. I'm sitting here at my desk looking quite strapping in my sundress, sandals and curled hair. Who knew I could go lean and green and have a little fun too.

Loving my exercise even if the pounds aren't dropping as fast as I'd like...


Ollie

on sunday i realised that i had to pay all the outstanding ammount by this friday, so i paid it yesterday. whilst i was on the phone, i was asked if i had any questions. the one question i wanted answering was the normal time it takes from op to first fill, as on here it is so very varied. the lady who spoke to, said that the consultant performing the op does not like to see any one before 8 weeks and does atleast the first 3 fills under x ray conditions. this means that they have to be done at the hospital where i am going to have my op. which is atleast an hour and a half away from where i live. the problem is that the only xray fill appointments there are are on a monday night-everyone booked in for that evenig has to be there by 5pm. this is going to cause problems for me, as i teach and therefore cant take time off during term time. so i have worked out that the only times i can go (this is if they have room in that one slot) is in half terms etc, which would be 14 weeks after, 21 weeks after, 29 weeks and 36 weeks. im getting myself worried (i worry about stupid little things that i can not control) that i am not going to be able to have my fill done for ages, and therefore there is no point in having this done.
i have also been told that i have to see the nurse every 2 week, this is easier, as it is 30 minutes away from where i live. hopefully there will be eveninng or saturday appointments to see her, as surely there are people in the same situation as me-that work and are having this done?

im now not worried about the surgery, just about these appointments and getting to them.

Sarah

I was banded on June 24th in Mexico and am doing great. I'm still on a liquid diet and have lost 18 pounds already. I was a little sceptical about going down there but a contact that had it done went with me and I had a great experience. If you want details let me know.

Merna

Apt w/ Dr P today. Lost 12lbs from last visit five weeks ago. 2.4lbs per week. Lets keep this up!!

Still training hard. That is the key.

it will be 2 weeks tomorrow since i was banded. i am so ready to eat food with substance. hopefully my dr. will let me. i get my first fill on thursday so we will see. it was very hard over the holiday weekend and also my husbands birthday. can you say bbq, cake, and ice cream. and boy did that bbq smell good:tt2:. but i was good i stuck with the protein shakes and clear and full liquids. so i was a good girl. if anyone has any ideas for full liquid that would be great. and also i am not losing as much weight as i would like. i would think i haven't eaten so i should lose more. plus i am going to the gym. well hope everyone had a good and safe holiday weekend!!!:thumbup::thumbup:

I saw Dr. Simpson today and was overall very impressed. He reviewed my medical info and said I am a good candidate for surgery. HURRAY!

I need to attend a couple of classes (nutrition, post-op diet, etc.), have a psych eval, etc., and then can schedule the surgery.

Yes!!!!

I'm really losing slowly now, better than not losing at all. My scale says I'm down another 3 lbs in 2 weeks. I really like to lose 2 lbs a week, but I will take what every I can get. I went so long without losing anything at all, I can't hardly believe I'm losing. I just need to be patient and it will come. I really excited about losing anything. I maybe a little to tight, but not so bad that I can't live with it. I'm having some acid reflex, esp. after I take my meds. I don't know maybe I should try crushing them again. It worst at night when I go to bed. I really can't eat bread, pizza crust, muffins, or cake that is dense. I really have to chew my meat really really good. I can eat chicken salad or most salad in general. I'm have to remember to eat slowly also. If I get to hungry I forget and I will eat to fast and then it hits me. The slimming and the pain is a great reminder to slow down.
My DH is on his annual campout with is high school buddys. They have done this at least 35 years, you would think that they would out grow this at some point. Believe it or not he has taken more vacations with them then he has with me. It still makes me feel like he doesn't care as much as about me as he does about them. He gets so excited about the campout. He spends weeks figuring out what to take. Making lists and emailing the other guys. They act like bunch of little kinds. Of course I won't tell him no he can't go, that would make me seem petty and bitchy. I guess it makes me mad because all the years I worked I took my vacations to take care of sick kids while he went camping with his friends or on trips to Canada with his fishing buddys. In the 38 years we have been together we have taken 5 long vacations together and maybe 10 weekend trips together. So yeah I'm mad that he still goes. Oh well it time to get busy and do thing that need to be done.
I sometimes don't feel very loved.