I go to my surgeon tomorrow for my monthly appt. I know I have lost but not sure how much. I want a fill. He has not injected me in 3 months. I am suppose to have 3.75cc in my 10 cc band but I don't think it is all there. I am nervous and excited about tomorrow. I asked my b/f to come with me. I am glad he is going to drive b/c that parking garage is a nightmare. anyway....
the last time he did inject me he had a hard time finding the port. He told me to remind him that it is tilted...

Well, I made it through the day. Ate pretty good. Made some good choices and made some bad. All together not too bad. Did not have any PB episodes. Was able to eat slowly and not get sick. Not feeling too much restriction and trying to pretend like I do. Lots of choices today. Ate dinner with my bf's family. Was able to make the best of it and it was uneventful. My son had a good time and I got to whip his ass at 500 rume. (not sure how to spell that) I hope u all had a good holiday...

Tonight I went to a birthday dinner at my bf's sister house. Just his immediate family were there. Some of them I have not seen in months and can't believe all the woman would not say a word when I took off my coat. His Mom had plenty to say when I was 42 pounds heavier. But now thinner.....
No, No words. His 2 sisters did not say anything. I can't believe the compliments I rec'd were from 2 men at the gathering. One was elderly but he has met me before at that house and was like wow,...

I everyone. My honey and I got together with another couple tonight for dinner.
He cooked really expensive steaks and we had a potatoe dish and mixed vegtables.
I think I got so excited b/c it looked so good and I just chewed and swallowed way too quickly. I had to get up during the dinner and go to the bathroom. I felt bad. I was running the water so no one would here me.
I got sick 3 more times after that. When they warn u no matter how much u chew steak sometimes it just...

I am eating more. I know that my restriction has left. I am eating more and more. I even went to the bakery today. I usually make good choices everyday. I have gone to my doctor several times over the past few months and he won't fill me. He thinks I am doing great. I am hungry. My hunger has not left. I am suppose to be at 3.75cc in my 10cc band. I dont think I even have 2.5cc.
I don't know what else to do or say for him
to see that I really do need a fill. I have lost each...