I'm so excited! I am only 1 lb away from the 50-lb mark. I got my 2nd fill today and the surgeon said I was "right on track." I lost 30 lb before the surgery so "only" 19 since surgery on June 27, 2008, but I am happy that the scale is finally moving again. It was almost comical how it never budge from 269. I am staying home from the gym tonight but have been going religiously, which helps with the stress and mood. I am also doing well with "head hunger" since I started...

cherieinnv

OK, I've identified a pattern. I do well for a week or two, go to the gym, eat right, lose weight. Then I lose my grip and stop going to the gym, eat too much, eat chocolate, gain a few.

WHAT IS MY PROBLEM?

Tonight, I argued with myself as I drove home from work. I could have gone to the gym but I couldn't decide and then I was past the exit.

I like the support group I found but can't remember when it meets. Hopefully, I'll find info here.

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cherieinnv

I haven't posted in over a month, but my life is changing and I am working hard to keep up my progress, since I had a few hard weeks.

I started eating bad stuff around my bday (cake, etc.) and my blood sugar went high for the first time since surgery. I forgot how sick I used to feel! It scared the hell out of me and I am being a very conscientious eater now, going to the gym, etc.

I got my first fill last week and I can feel the difference. Right after the fill, I tried...

cherieinnv

I have really had a bad two weeks. I did great with weeks 1 and 2, but once I could eat "real food" I started overeating, even when it hurt. I don't seem to have any restriction and I know this is "bandster hell" but I am unhappy with myself. I gained weight back and went into a major depression, which I am just overcoming.

I know this is a learning experience but I didn't expect it to be so hard. I wanted to be one of those inspiring people, and here I am falling...

cherieinnv

I am so much happier on full liquids. I enjoy having soup. I found a really good Campbell's soup (in a box) that is red pepper and black bean. It was delicious!

I go back to work tomorrow. Sigh...but the routine will do me good. I just wish I had more energy. But I can't hide out in my apartment forever!

I drank V-8 today and it tasted really good. I am drinking a protein drink for lunch (Novarti) that is for bariatric patients. It tastes pretty good but I can only make...

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