Okay, I just did it. I just completed my online loan application for my surgery. I expect all to go well, but.....you just never know. A few years ago we were trying to get a home building loan and we were turned down. Credit scores in the 800's and we were refused. The bank actually said the house was more than we needed?! Bastards! (Can I say that here?) All ended well and the next year we built our house anyway. I don't use that bank and I won't even sit under their awning at the street parades, so there, HA!I'm feeling anxious. I have to say I believe my anxiety comes from the LapBand itself. I don't like the looks of it. I have decided that I'll get the RealizeBand, if possible. I'm just having trouble finding someone in Austin qualified to use the new band and I dread having to go to San Antonio.
...the (first) wait begins !
Imredy
Posted 05-31-2008 at 09:36 AM by BanTam
Nope, not a misspelling. It was a message.
While driving to my exercise consultation I was still mulling over in my head the decision to get the band. I am self pay and we had to take a loan out to cover the $16K surgery.
The little bit of savings that we were putting away is going to have to be used to make the loan payments for the next five years. That brings a lot of guilt. BUT on the other hand if my husband needed this surgery I would not hesitate to spend the money. So, you get the idea of the war going on inside of my head.
As I’m driving a white car cuts in front of me at a red light. No big deal. Then the license plate caught my eye….IMREDY….! Instantly I knew that message was for me. I am ready.
I am ready to be more active with my husband. I am ready to do yard work and not have to sit on the ground to pull weeds. I am ready to be able to put my shoes on without sitting on the bed and pulling one leg up at a time. I am ready to see body parts that have been hidden by other fat body parts. I am ready to look good (ahem…BETTER) in a pair of tight jeans again. I am ready to begin my new life.
….and that life begins on June 2nd.
While driving to my exercise consultation I was still mulling over in my head the decision to get the band. I am self pay and we had to take a loan out to cover the $16K surgery.
The little bit of savings that we were putting away is going to have to be used to make the loan payments for the next five years. That brings a lot of guilt. BUT on the other hand if my husband needed this surgery I would not hesitate to spend the money. So, you get the idea of the war going on inside of my head.
As I’m driving a white car cuts in front of me at a red light. No big deal. Then the license plate caught my eye….IMREDY….! Instantly I knew that message was for me. I am ready.
I am ready to be more active with my husband. I am ready to do yard work and not have to sit on the ground to pull weeds. I am ready to be able to put my shoes on without sitting on the bed and pulling one leg up at a time. I am ready to see body parts that have been hidden by other fat body parts. I am ready to look good (ahem…BETTER) in a pair of tight jeans again. I am ready to begin my new life.
….and that life begins on June 2nd.
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