Okay, I just did it. I just completed my online loan application for my surgery. I expect all to go well, but.....you just never know. A few years ago we were trying to get a home building loan and we were turned down. Credit scores in the 800's and we were refused. The bank actually said the house was more than we needed?! Bastards! (Can I say that here?) All ended well and the next year we built our house anyway. I don't use that bank and I won't even sit under their awning at the street parades, so there, HA!

I'm feeling anxious. I have to say I believe my anxiety comes from the LapBand itself. I don't like the looks of it. I have decided that I'll get the RealizeBand, if possible. I'm just having trouble finding someone in Austin qualified to use the new band and I dread having to go to San Antonio.

...the (first) wait begins !

Surgery cancelled as I lay on the bed! Posted 06-02-2008 at 09:11 PM by BanTam Updated 06-02-2008 at 09:14 PM by BanTam I'm pretty bummed right now. I went in for my surgery today and I was told my doctor was running an hour late (it ended up being closer to TWO hours late)and during the wait I was talking to anesthesiologist and I mentioned how I had to be intibated while still away for my last surgery. He seemed surprised but nothing too bad. My IV's were in place, I'd been given the shot in my belly for blood clots and the anethesiolgist gave me one to "dry up mucus"...I'm still... Continue reading... BanTam I'm a little chicken...

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Imredy Posted 05-31-2008 at 09:36 AM by BanTam Nope, not a misspelling. It was a message. While driving to my exercise consultation I was still mulling over in my head the decision to get the band. I am self pay and we had to take a loan out to cover the $16K surgery. The little bit of savings that we were putting away is going to have to be used to make the loan payments for the next five years. That brings a lot of guilt. BUT on the other hand if my husband needed this surgery I would not hesitate to spend the... Continue reading... BanTam I'm a little chicken...

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One week to go! Posted 05-26-2008 at 09:25 PM by BanTam Updated 05-26-2008 at 09:28 PM by BanTam The holiday was a little tough. We went to a friends party and there wasn't much for me to eat on the lc phase. We had taken some fried chicken and I pulled the crust and skin off and ate that. I DID have a small piece of cheesecake; no crust or topping. Considering I didn't eat a whole lot yesterday, I think I'm fine. Today I think I had even fewer carbs I need to check fitday. AND...I rode my stationary bike for 30 minutes. Something I hope to start doing every day.... Continue reading... BanTam I'm a little chicken...

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Date is set... Posted 05-23-2008 at 10:58 PM by BanTam Dear Blog MonSTAH... I am scared or worried or anxious or ALL of them. But never ever before have I wanted to look into a crystal ball and find out what my future brings more than I do right now. June 2nd could be the greatest or the worst day of my life. I keep pumping myself up and telling myself if I don't do this where will I be a year from now? Fatter. I know that. If not fatter, then struggling to keep my weight "down" to 285...not quite... Continue reading... BanTam I'm a little chicken...

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Egads! They want to operate on June 2nd ? Posted 05-17-2008 at 09:45 PM by BanTam Wow, talk about FAST! I was expecting to have surgery the mid/end June, not the first Monday in June. Hmm...I don't have my psycho eval until June 4th, so wonder how that works? Will they do it after ??? All of my appointments are all lined up over the next couple of weeks with my physcial scheduled for Friday. I guess that's enough time for the blood work to come back. STILL no final freaking outcome to my job issue...more than two months now....I wish ED on them... Continue reading... BanTam I'm a little chicken...

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