I had the surgery exactly 5 weeks ago.
Since then, I've been taking baby steps towards my goals. While I want to take adult steps, I know it doesnt work like that.

So to keep me motivated I made a lot of goals for myself. At 208 pounds, I've just made it past my goal to lose 20 pounds, and now I'm past that!!

Here are some future goals I'm aiming for:

206 pounds: 1/4 of my goal weight loss gone!!
199 pounds: onederland!
195 pounds: my...

I had my first fill last Friday. The doc who usually does the cosmetic surgeries did it. My doc was eating lunch, but came out straight after my fill. I wonder if they were letting him practise.....

I got 2ccs. My doc previously said he would give me 3 ccs, so I'm a bit miffed I didnt get 3, as I totally cant notice the 2. Well I lie, I can notice the 2, but I need more.
Since the fill, I'm getting stuck on foods that were previously fine. In 3 weeks, I've recovered back to my...

I wonder what can I do because I'm not feeling very hungry but I feel like I should eat because its breakfast time, or lunch time, or dinner time, and when I eat, I can eat too much. No restriction, unless I ate bread.

And what to do when everyone else is eating, or eating is an event, or people are always asking me out to eat? It feels like eating used to be something I did, and now its the center of my life because I'm trying to avoid it, or I spend alot of time choosing what I can...

I went for my 1 week check up today. My doc checked my wounds, and asked me if I wanted a fill. I have so much restriction right now, I do not need one. I can barely eat, and am rarely hungry. I said no fill for me, and he was fine.

My doc said he wanted me to hop under the xray to look at my band and port. He said, some docs put the port into muscle, but he doesnt. so it can move a little. He said, the xray doesnt show which way around the port is, so he wants to put the needle in...

I WANT to loose weight properly with this band. I WANT to eat healthy foods, and stop when I feel the restriction from the band, and I WANT to exercise.

At the moment, I cant eat enough, I cant exercise enough, and I cant loose weight properly. But regardless, I am losing weight. I will appreciate this weight loss now, and promise myself to keep trying to do it properly when I am able to.

My first goal, was to go from 105kgs to 99kgs, get back into the double digits....