My fill hasn't restricted me but I'm trying to eat just bits because where I'm from we have Fiesta once a year and celebrate Old Spanish Days. It is very important to us hispanics in my community. I recently ran into one of my old friends from a fraternity my 1st love was in - Q-dogz Omega Psi Phi! My first love was soooo sweet to me and we stayed in touch for about 10 years before finally losing touch. He invited me to a Fiesta Party where all the old peeps from our group will be...

I really don't know why I am sabotaging my body. I know better, I really do. I was a drug addict before many years ago and was clean for a long time. However, over the last few months I have sniffed a few lines here and there and also have taken ectasy. I took FOUR ecstasy pills yesterday. I love the feeling of "feeling" different. I used to use food as my drug and now it seems I am getting cravings for other things too. I also have an OTC sleeping pill addition to. I sometimes...

Got first fill today 1.5cc. It was a piece of cake! Also got a B-12 shot. The best news is that I am down 14 lbs!!!!!!

Got on scales and weight is moving again. It was stuck for a while. I lost 10, then gained back 3, then lost 4 so now I am down 11 lbs. I go for my first fill today!

Okay, today I decided why not invest in a personal trainer. I have spent thousands already doing this but I always get discouraged and quit because while I was exercising regularly, I never changed the way I eat so the results were always minimal if any. This time, hopefully will be different. I signed up for twice a week workouts. This first one was a doozy..I was pouring sweat (which is a good sign). I will continue to swim on the weekends because I adore swimming, I am a FISH.