I used to think I really loved me. I guess thes last couple days have proven me wrong, because I'm mentally falling into bad behaviors. Oh, nothing I'm in serious trouble for...for bad behaviors none the less. I'm biting and chewing...and chewed really super good and had some chicken breast. It felt wonderful. I had no problem getting it down, nothing came up, everything settled well. The part that scares me is whether or not I'm going to be able to stop myself next time.

Right now,...

As for today, it was a successful day. But this evening, I've been grazing...chewing and spitting. ick. And not good things either...just things. Left overs from Trin's plate...duh.

I know this is the time on a normal diet I would cave. Completely, udderly go into the fridge and eat anything and everything until I couldn't breathe.

Honestly, I'm afraid of the skinny me. I don't know what kind of person she is, how she copes...is she friendly, or will she ruin all the...

Today is Mother's Day. i should be in the other room enjoying my kids and husband, laughing and having fun. Instead I've just cooked lunch for the fsmily and am sitting at the computer sorting out my anger issues. Of course, i can't have anything to eat to forget them...so I'm upset about that. For Pete's sake, today is SHRIMP DAY!!! This is my day to eat every shrimp in town and not feel one bit guilty for that!!! do they make liquid shrimp??? What if I promise to spit them all out after I chew...