Waiting for second fill

I am waiting for second fill. I only feel a small amout of restriction especially eating meat. The other day I was out to eat with my BF and I guess I was just going to fast.
All the sudden, my chest started to feel pain. It was a big wake up call. I did not eat alot of food but it was how fast I was going. I have to learn to slow down esp. when eating out. When I am home I follow my LAP-BAND® diet perfectly. When I eat out, I just have a different mindset. Why does food bring such joy? I have made so many changes in the past 2 months. I only had surgery on May 11 th. I need another fill and my doc. says I have to wait 4 weeks between visits. It pisses me off. I am paying for this myself. I want to get to the point that I don't have an appetite and can only eat small portions. I want the results so many others have had on this site. I think I should be able to pay the $ 175.00 for an office visit and get a fill. I am a self pay and just want GOOD results. I am going to hang on and just try to continue taking it one day at a time. I am back at the gym doing step class 3 x per week.