Oh yeah! I am super excited/nervous about tomorrow. I decided to pursue looking into the Duodenal Switch and I have to meet with the other surgeon who might consider doing it. I'm pretty much off a LAP-BAND® high right now. Don't get me wrong I still love those little helpers but I realized that with my insurance and the "once in a lifetime" payment I need to make sure that I think twice and cut once. I don't think that Dr C will do it to be honest. His staff didn't even have a billing...

Things I learned at the gym swimming today-


(To my old personal trainer at 24 hour fitness, Cheryl)

I miss my personal trainer Cheryl. I love you Cheryl! I wish I could afford to see you twice a week. I am afraid that if you found out I am having WLS you would be disappointed in me. I value your opinion and you did so much for me but alas, you are a size 2 and will never know the life of a morbidly obese person.

(To the guy with an eagle tattoo...

What am I doing here? Seriously? What!?!?

I have so much to do today and I can't stop thinking about WL surgery and what it will mean for me. I'm on here reading story after story trying to figure out which story will resemble mine when I go through it myself, and there isn't any way of knowing so why am I torturing myself?? A couple of days ago I was watching the Grey's Anatomy finale and it is pretty intense and bloody blech.. and that night I had a dream that I went into the...

So last night my neighbor talked me into going for a walk with her at the butt crack of dawn. I got up at 5:45 and rolled out of bed put on my clothes and slumped outside. It had just rained so it smelled like cedar and fresh air and it was really invigorating. Initially my neighbor wanted to go walking with "the group" but apparently they walked too fast for her and asked me, Miss 100lbs over weight to join her and I agreed. OH MY GOSH! Suuuuure she walked slow. I've even been working...

Sitting here on a nice quiet Saturday afternoon is nice. I'm listening to country music which I don't particularly like but my three year old son stole my husbands iPhone and is listening to his music library. He is all content so I can't tell him to turn it off because it's making mommies ears bleed

So I just realized that I have two weeks left until my six month diet is complete and I have only lost half the required weight. BOO! I'm trying not to be hard on myself but on...