I am feeling so much better- kind of like my old self but 16 pounds thinner!

It's rough though trying to work on breaking these head hunger habits of mine. I never really understood how much I was going to the fridge and how many calories I was unconsciously putting in my mouth until I really had to pay attention.

Today I ate too many mushies. Who would've thought it possible? LOL I found that cream of chicken soup tastes so much better with mushed saltines and sour...

I'm having some weird mood swings. I know it's the week before my period which normally is a moody week but I just don't feel that great. Maybe I have the mushy blues? I am doing fine sticking to mushy and blended stuff but I am having a hard time sticking to a 1/2 c. I am trying to figure out if it's head hunger or physical hunger..... My calories are still SO much lower than normal but I don't want my stomach to have to work harder than it's supposed to right now.
I am just so anxious...

I blended cream of potatoe soup today with creamy tomato verd... something or other and it was SO good. I ate more than a 1/2 cup but didn't stuff myself. I stopped when I needed and had a shake for breakfast and dinner so as not to make the band work too hard.
This is hard work already and it's only just begun. I think it will better when I am able to eat and exercise like a normal person. This healing phase is pretty rough.

I had my first full liquid this morning and it went down just fine. I am feeling even better today though my abdomen is still very sore. I am 261 this morning:clap2: and quite pleased.
Yesterday was a really rough day for me and I didn't realize how bad it was until I woke up feeling better this morning. I think I was really scared about not having food as the same crutch anymore. I felt incredible urges to eat and I wasn't even hungry. It was awful. This morning I feel better and...

Today is day 4 and I'm feeling alot better. I had a bad bout of vomiting the first night home and was sure that I ripped my band right out. No more pain meds for me and I'm feeling much better. I removed the outer bandages today as well and the cuts don't look that bad. I can't wait to be more healed though.
Tomorrow I start full liquids and I can't wait b/c today I feel pretty weak and tired. I did put a bit of peanut butter on my tongue and that tasted pretty good but I certainly don't...