January 2, 2007

Well, I've been doing better with food but things have just remained stagnant with my weight loss. I seem to have been lacking the full motivation to take things to the next level.
DH and I decided to do nutrisystem for the next month to help us out a bit. I still struggle with portion control and get really flustered when I don't have the foods I need on hand. We thought that this would help me get the portion control down pat while stopping the struggle with menu planning. I think that I'll only buy the food for a couple of months and that should help me out. Already today it's been a relief to just go pick something out and eat it- the best part is that both of the things I've had have been satisfying and filling.

I get bummed out sometimes that weight loss is still such a struggle with the band. I thought it would be easier but it's not for me. Thank God for my continued therapy. It is shocking to me what a hold food has had on me- I never understood how much I hid behind it and how much it kept my emotions in check. Now I am a basket case all of the time but Elena says it's years of suppressing things finally being resolved.

I hope that getting all of this under control will be a route to happiness for me. I have such a good life and I just want to enjoy it more. :)