How you doin'? Me, not so good.
Posted 08-25-2009 at 11:51 AM by ajoneen
The same three pounds are on and off. I'm essentially the same weight I was this time last year. I know if I worked harder at it I would have more success. My food choices are for the most part good. Im sure there could be more tweaking but realistically I can't do any better.
Exercise is the hard part. If I could do 3-5 days a week I know I would be a success. I responded well to coaching but I've hit my $$ limit. Personal trainers work but are expensive!! I can not afford to invest any more. I had reduced the sessions to once a week thinking that would stretch out the time I had and hold me accountable. Ha! Even with me paying for him to care I could tell he was losing interest. Today it really hit me because I went to my trainers only to find he is out of business. I had prepaid for my sessions and am now out that $$. I wish I had someone in my life that cared more about my health then I do.
My job is sucky. I do the financial side of the business and can see that the company is sinking. We are downsizing like crazy and moving the office to a smaller location but I think I will need to be looking for another job soon. Which sucks because Im socially close to my boss & his family and that friendship will suffer. Ya more stress.
I gotta say Im feeling like a failure. I used to look in the mirror and think I looked good. Big yes, but good. Now I just see hanging, flabby, rolls of skin.
I am the stereotypical fat person. I complain about the situation but am not willing to actually do the hard work that is necessary.
Not sure why I felt the need to come over here and darken your day. Guess I just needed to unburden. Feeling guilty.
Exercise is the hard part. If I could do 3-5 days a week I know I would be a success. I responded well to coaching but I've hit my $$ limit. Personal trainers work but are expensive!! I can not afford to invest any more. I had reduced the sessions to once a week thinking that would stretch out the time I had and hold me accountable. Ha! Even with me paying for him to care I could tell he was losing interest. Today it really hit me because I went to my trainers only to find he is out of business. I had prepaid for my sessions and am now out that $$. I wish I had someone in my life that cared more about my health then I do.
My job is sucky. I do the financial side of the business and can see that the company is sinking. We are downsizing like crazy and moving the office to a smaller location but I think I will need to be looking for another job soon. Which sucks because Im socially close to my boss & his family and that friendship will suffer. Ya more stress.
I gotta say Im feeling like a failure. I used to look in the mirror and think I looked good. Big yes, but good. Now I just see hanging, flabby, rolls of skin.
I am the stereotypical fat person. I complain about the situation but am not willing to actually do the hard work that is necessary.
Not sure why I felt the need to come over here and darken your day. Guess I just needed to unburden. Feeling guilty.
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It's good to vent! It's good to see things written down too. Maybe if you read your post a few times it will trip something in you.
I have faith in you and I care about your health. You can do it.
Exercise can be fun too! Take a belly dancing class, water aerobics, zumba. See it as some "YOU" time, because "YOU" deserve it.
Posted 08-25-2009 at 06:20 PM by LauraKey
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That is a really sweet and positive comment. Thanks!
I do like to be active and actually love the way I feel -after- I exercise. I wish I could bottle the feeling.Posted 08-27-2009 at 10:24 PM by ajoneen
