It has been a long time. so much has happened and I have not even been able to keep track of it all. I did not get to celebrate any of the mile stones I made. Like being on a plan and nothaving to ask for an extender for my seat belt! That was a long time ago! since then I fell and fractured my leg and in a cast. I have been eating like I was never banded and even when it hurts I just keep on eating. My emotional self is completely out of wack and I am not sure what the hell to do. Yes I am feeling...

My post surgery appointment went well. I seem to have leveled off with the weight lost since I introduce solid foods. I am eating less and very careful about what I eat. Sometimes old habbits just slip in. I have something in my mouth before I realize it. I did better and just have to work on that and only eat when my body tells me it is time to eat. I also have to start exercising. I find that the hardest thing to do given my hair and life style. It would is the only way I am going to make this...

It has been an interesting two weeks. I have lost 11 pounds since the band and that feels good. I am a little worried because the urge to eat has returned and I am not sure I have changed any real behaviors in this area. I want this to work because of some of the controls I put into place as well as the tool the band provides! I am thinking about food more than before and that scares me alittle. I ate more this weekend than I did since the surgery. I know a fill will bring back the restrictions...

Well October 30th has come and gone. I did it! It was not as bad as I thought it would be. In fact it was pretty easy. The folks at the hospital were great and very supportive. I met two people who also had simalar procedures on the same day. I am still a little sore and wish I did not have to return to work and could really concentrate on me a little more. I am not sure how I will tackle all the eating events to come this week. I am not interested in feeling bad or sick. I kinda miss food and not...

The date is getting closer and closer. I still have some issues saying no to food and having a hard time doing the liquid diet. I think I am ready for this, I want to look and feel different about me. I want to also be attractive to me and then to others as well. I'm still too embarassed to tell folks what I am doing so I make up stories. But that is not a big issue right now. I am not sure if it is my fear of failure or just "I should have been able to do this" without the band. Either...