Entries for June 2008

so today i have my sleep study consult. i don't know if I'm going to have the sleep study or not. i also am calling the insurance co. to day to ask them the questions in the packet that Norton's gave me. the answer to that will let me know if i still need to try with the sleep study or not. I'm nervous.

the whole thing that has freaked me out the most was the surgery part but i feel better about it now.

about 4 days ago my best friend called me from the hospital. she...

I can understand that anything but glowing reviews and someone blaming the band for all their woes can feel like someone calling your child (or other cherished person) horrible names. But it is truely nothing personal and leave that emotion out of your replies. If you would like more info from that person respectfully ask for more without accusing them of everything in the book.

Does everything really need to be challenged?

I chose to post this in a blog instead of in a...

I am finally a bandster! I was banded at NYU by one of the greatest-no wait, maybe the greatest surgeon ever, Dr. George Fielding. I chose him for more than his supurb qualifications, I chose him because he understood me. Hell, at one point he was me. He struggled with his own weight until he was banded himself over what I believe was eight years ago. So to have the choice of a surgeon who was not only a doctor, but also a patient and has truly experianced things as I would eventually, it was...

I want to eat sweets, as many as I can stand. I don’t want to exercise. I want help, and I don’t know where to get it. I can’t make anyone understand why I want to scream! It’s an effort for me to get up off the floor after exercising, out of chairs, and we won’t talk about going up and down stairs. I have to stop and rest. I just want to lay down and eat cookies. I think about cookies even as I’m eating a meal. I’m freakin’ huge, and I can’t make the stupid physicians’ group understand that I want...

In a strange mood today. Mad at myself and wanting to have a pity party but that thought just makes me mad too.

I'm supposed to lose 23 pounds (10%) during this class and before surgery. No surgery date yet and that could be part of my problem.

Anyway, having a hard time losing. Although most weeks I am losing (.4 this last week) the scale continues to bounce up and down on a daily basis. I know that's normal. I try not to get too wound up in it.

On the...