Well, my friend had her surgery done last Tuesday and all went well. I'm so ready. I have my medical history, my curves papers. I have an appointment for Jan 8 to do all of my testing. I'm already trying to prepare my self and the insurance company hasn't even approved yet. I'm done to a couple of sips of pop a day. I'm weaning my self off of it. I try to remember to eat slow and cut back on my volume at mealtime. That's where I have trouble if its in front of me I want to eat eat eat......

Well, last night I dreamed I missed by appoitment and couldn't let the LAP-BAND®. I was lost and couldn't find where I was suppose to go and it made me late so I couldn't get it done. I cried in my dream... I guess that tells me how bad I want to have this done. My son said he would be embarressed to have something like this done, but that he would like to have a skinny mom.

I feel uuk! I have definity dun lapped over my jeans and feeling like I'm definitly going to have the surgery.... If nothing happens between now and then.... like loss of job, insurance, etc.... Sometimes I can't wait.... I see people in cute cloths and I think, hey one day hopefully soon I can go and buy cute cloths to where... not just something to cover up my fat body. My husband sometimes is supporting and others times he isn't. I'm not for sure if it's cause of the money or because of afraid...

Well, I called my insurance company again today to make sure I wasn't doing all of this for noithing because if they don't approve me I know I can't have it done..... I spoke with a lady in the approval department and we discussed my weight and how many years I have been overweight and the struggles and diet methods I have used and she said I would probably be approved she couldn't say for sure but sounded confindent that I was a good candate..... Majel and I have been walking for 5 weeks now and...

10/12/06- On 10/2 I went to a LAP-BAND® seminar. I decide then I was definitely interested but have a hard time spending the money it would take to have the surgery.... I told my self to try to start trying.... to loose weight. I have been walking three weeks now and I try to eat less. My goaled is by January if I haven't made progress to have the surgery. I have even made an appoitment for Jan 8th.... I thought this would be best and I wouldn't have to pay the 2006 & 2007 deductable for...