Went in for my fill yesterday, was down 6lbs since my last fill on February 27th. I was feeling good about that until the APRN who does the fills comes in, she decides that she wants me to lose more weight and put me on Adipex. She gives me a fill and tells me to come back in two weeks to follow up from the Adipex.

I was very on the fence about this, I could've taken Adipex years ago, I didn't want to. Does this MDs office have some sort of weight quota they have to meet per year??? If I wanted to lose weight fast I would've had the bypass.

Anyway, being the good patient I am, I took the Adipex at 7am this morning. By 8am, I am bouncing off the walls. I just finished 1 cup of soup, and that's all I've eaten today. Right now I'm sweating like crazy, this is not good!

I'm going to keep taking it until my follow up appointment in two weeks. I promised myself if I lose 10 lbs in the two weeks I'll keep taking it, if not, then I'm going to tell them that I'm not taking it anymore and I've been losing weight at a good pace (IMHO)

Ugh story of my life!

Well I'm safely back at work after an amazing week in Key West. The weather was beautiful it literally rained 5 minutes one day and was sunny for the rest of the week. I did okay food wise, not a lot of snacking but a lot of big meals (and two slices of Key Lime Pie!).

Let's see, highlights of the week. The flight down was smooth, no problem at all, had a looong layover in Fort Lauderdale, it was boring! They had a Chili's with a very limited menu and I hate Chili's but I was starving, so I had some sliders which were gross.

Wednesday my mom and I drove up to Grassy Key to go to the Dolphin Research Center she really enjoyed it, it was a belated birthday gift for her so I treated her to that, breakfast and lunch. I have a new found love of mahi mahi and had a blackened mahi mahi sandwich at this restaurant in Key West, we loved it so much we brought my dad back for a last meal together on Friday night.

Thursday my dad and I chartered a boat and did some light tackle fishing out in the Gulf of Mexico. Light tackle fishing turned into deep sea fishing at some point, I'm not sure....anyway, after the boat captain casts out my line, I get a bite, and I start reeling, and reeling, and reeling, finally after a half hour and a couple of breaks, I reel in a 60lb Amberjack. My dad has pictures I'm dying to show the world, I was so proud of myself! The captain asked if I wanted to get it taxidermed (is that the word?) my dad started laughing knowing how much of an animal lover I am, I go "throw him back, I don't want him on my wall, he needs to live a long life!" meanwhile, my dad catches a 30 lb Amberjack that they throw in the cooler for dinner that night, I didn't find this out until we got back on the dock and the captain is gutting the fish....but it was good

Saturday I came home, I was so tired I had a late dinner of a steak and cheese sub at like 10:30 at night with the dbf. Sunday, he cooked eggs, sausage and toast, and we had general tso's shrimp for lunch. I am feeling the regret from this since I'm going in for a fill at 1pm, I know I lost something this month, I don't feel like I gained, my clothes fit fine but the scale will tell! If anything, I'll just get a lecture (actually I think they put in my chart I was coming back from vacation lol), a fill and get back on track again. I worked out one day on vacation, and I'm counting Thursday as a work out day because my left arm is still sore! Re-doing week three of c25k since I've been doing such a GREAT ::rolls eyes:: job at it! Actually Monday on vacation I re did week three and I was doing okay, not great, but not dying either, so we'll see how it goes.

Food wise this week---forget about cooking, after my fill, I'm going to pick up my cat from the kitty bed and breakfast and it's off to stop and shop since Smart Ones are 2 bucks each this week. There's my cooking for you lol. Sodium city, but I'm drinking a ton of water lately.

Well I guess that's all in my universe, once I get some pictures from vacation I will post them asap.

So enough crying and whining yesterday--today was a new day and I think I did alright! I had some scrambed eggs, a hash brown and also got some pink grapefruit that I couldn't eat. I think tomorrow I'll cut out the hash brown, it was a little gross. Had my kashi cereal for lunch and I just discovered these AWESOME chips that if I can find them in single serving size at the grocery store I'm going to pick up, because 75 cents a pop at the vending machine is a little expensive. They are from Herr's and they are "popped chips" they are good, but I could probably have way more than one!

Last night my friend and I went to a "total conditioning" class. I did alright, kept up with the instructor and did my first pushup EVER! I was so proud of myself! I did more than one pushup obviously but I was just in shock with myself! The part I couldn't do were the "planks" those are tough, but I'm going to keep up with it, and try to do it. I have to call tomorrow to pay for the rest of the classes I'm kind of sad that I'm going to miss the class next week. Also the girl I went with I convinced her to go to Zumba with me on Thursday nights after I get back from vacation. So, with everything being said and done, that's 5 nights a week of excercise!

Tonight I'm going to go to the track and re-start week 4 of c25k since I missed Monday due to the migraine. Thursday I'll do another c25k train and then Saturday when I get down to Florida. The dbf is going to come over tonight to hang out and relax since we won't be doing much of that Friday!

Have a good day everyone!

So my whole thing this week was I was going to go on a liquid diet before vacation to kind of balance out all the potential crap I'm going to eat next week. Well, yesterday was WONDERFUL! Not! Two protein shakes and a fight with the dbf gave me the worse migraine I had since before my surgery! I was so nauseous I wanted to throw up but I couldn't, ugh. So I took two advil and closed the blinds in my family room. Okay so two protein shakes, a handful of pretzels because I thought it was my blood sugar that was off, then a packet of cream cheese at Dunkin' Donuts because I thought it was STILL my blood sugar! I get home and eat a whole bag of......wait for it......steamed broccoli with pesto (bad!) and mayo (worse!!!!) but I did feel somewhat better. I was pissed too because I didn't get to excercise. So there's kicks in the @$$ parts 1, 2 and 3!

I feel like I'm failing, I've been doing so good 30 lbs in 3 months is nothing to sneeze at! But now I feel like I'm sabotaging myself! I hate it!

Today started off fine, I had my usual egg white omlette with veggies and cheese lunch was a disaster. I had half of a tuna sandwich with some steak fries. I feel so bad eating those, I suck at this! Stop the sabotage!!!!! At least I know that for dinner I made something healthy and I'm going to a new excercise class tonight with my friend from high school. This class is free for me (tonight) I need to see if I can make it from the train station. If I like it I'll sign up for it. If I don't I think I'm going to sign up at a studio that has Zumba classes 7 days a week and go on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Tomorrow I'm re-doing the week of c25k that I did last week since I missed a run Monday I probably lost a lot of endurance.

Okay, so I f***** up today. Now a game plan for tomorrow. Breakfast: egg white omlette NO CHEESE! While I'm there, I'll get my lunch. They have Kashi cereal and milk. I'll have that for lunch and not even have a chance to meet up with the fries again tomorrow. Lunch: Kashi high protein cereal with skim milk. Dinner: Quorn cutlets with pesto and mozzarella. C25k after work. Don't give up!!!!

I don't even want to think about getting on the scales Thursday. If I gained I'll do a liquid diet Thursday and Friday just to get some weight off. I think I would've been okay if I didn't have the migraine from hell. It's such an excuse, but every time I get a fill I'm on a liquid diet and I'm fine no headaches or anything!

I need all the support I can get today!

Buuuuuttt on a nsv kind of note, I was quite proud of myself at the grocery store on Sunday. I was going to get the ingredients for my dinner this week and I wanted something to snack on since I was stressed. I'm not going to lie I grabbed tortilla chips, had a couple of handfuls with salsa and cheese and threw the rest out. Before this, I would've gotten cookies, ice cream, salty crunchy crap, but none of that interested me (I didn't even go into the Easter aisle damn Cadbury eggs!).

Also, I packed some healthy snacks in my luggage for my lay over Saturday. I packed a tuna salad to go kit (it's 200 calories) I'm also going to get some Ritz snackerfuls or whatever they're called and some rice crackers. Maybe some candy idk I'm going to see how I do food wise this week.

I'm just hoping my next fill is going to get me into the "green zone" I feel like I'm close. The band is definetly still there!

The luck of the Irish was definetly not on my side this weekend! Sorry I didn't blog on Friday, nothing really exciting going on lol. This weekend food wise was uneventful ate like crap like always, then regret it later, then realize that it wasn't that much food. Going on a liquid diet today until friday to amp up the weight loss. Having a protein shake for breakfast and lunch and a low-cal/high protein dinner. I'm eating/drinking 530 calories a day. Starting another week (I've lost count at what week I'm on) on c25k, spent all of last week outside doing it, the weather has been so nice.

Tuesday I'm trying out a class with a friend of mine it's cardio and hand weights, I have to see if I can make it from the train station to the class by 5:50 or so (the class starts at 6). Thursday I might "drop in" on a Zumba class see if I like the instructor, so I'll be officially working out 5 days a week starting in April! But I'll enjoy it because I enjoyed being outside all week last week. I actually enjoy being active!

I guess that's all, Mondays still suck even though it's my last week before vacation here at work!

Have a great day!

Three funny things happened last night after work:

1) I realized how tense I was when I'm running, so I just said to myself "relax stupid" and the tension from me grinding my teeth all the way down to my feet just kind of untensed and I had no headache yesterday yay!

2) I made General Tso's tofu. IDK I'm just not really interested in food anymore. Had three bites, threw the rest out even spit out what I was chewing and ate steamed broccoli instead (my crack). Also my mom gave me a subscription to Food Network magazine, I leafed through it found 0 recipes that I would make and threw out the magazine. Usually I would try to find something. Nope not this time lol.

3) I think I may have eaten a little too much broccoli bc I got that "stuck" feeling so I danced around the house listening to my iPod and it helped move the food down lol. So I got a little more excercise yesterday, my cat must think I'm crazy. Also I sing out loud while I'm running and I don't care who hears me lol.

I'd like to share what is on my c25k playlist, reminder: I'm a white girl from the suburbs so just digest that as you read. Let me know what's on your playlist:

Talk That Talk-Rihanna
Telephone-Lady Gaga
The World Is Mine-David Guetta
Touchin on My-3OH!3
Til the World Ends-Britney Spears
Turn Up The Music-Chris Brown
Welcome To The Jungle-Guns N Roses
Where Them Girls At-David Guetta
Who's That Chick-David Guetta
You Could Be Mine-GNR
You Make Me Feel-Cobra Starship
All of The Lights-Kanye
@$$ Back Home-Gym Class Heroes
Beautiful People-Chris Brown
Becky-Plies
Better With the Lights Off-New Boyz
Black and Yellow-Wiz Khalifa
Blackout-Breathe Carolina
Bottoms Up-Trey Songz
Turn It Up-Busta Rhymes
Look At Me Now-Chris Brown
Click, Flash-Ciara
Countdown-Beyonce
Break My Fall-DJ Tiesto feat BT
E.T.-Katy Perry
Hell On Heels-Pistol Annies
Holliwood-Madonna
I Don't Care-Fallout Boy
International Love-Pitbull
Judas-Lady Gaga
Love Game-Lady Gaga
Love Can Kill You-BT
Marry The Night-Lady Gaga
Mrs. Right-Mindless Behavior
Super Thug-Nore
Hot Tottie-Jay Z & Usher
Paris-Kanye & Jay Z
Ocean Avenue-Yellowcard
Otis-Kanye & Jay Z
S&M-Rihanna
Somnambulist-BT
Suddenly-BT
Can't Get Enough-J Cole
Wild One-Flo Rida

Things that happened to me today:

I lost 2lbs, so officially in three months I have lost 29 lbs!

I wore two different sneakers to work today lol.

Yesterday was uneventful, work ended up being crazier than ever, left a lot of stuff kind of "in the air" in regards to insurances and this morning it was nice to see all those surgeries cancelled lol. Today is a light day, still going to try to catch up so that I don't leave my co-workers with a ton of stuff to do while I'm away.

Today is looking to be a great day. Might run on the track again. I think I hurt my back running without a treadmill on Monday, I was definetly tensing up. My whole left side is killing me, I thought it was something with my kidneys it hurt that bad, but then when I stretched out a bit this morning it helped and walking definetly helps.

So I've decided next week I'm going to have protein drinks just for breakfast and lunch and a light dinner. I need to really amp up my weight loss before I go on vacation. Granted, I don't think I'm going to go crazy food wise in Florida, but my mom loves snack foods and dips, so do I, so I'm just going to try to be good. Also I have a fill the Monday after I get back from vacation so I don't want to hear it from the APRN if I gained weight even though she said last time "if you're going on vacation you'll probably gain weight, I won't get on you about it" lol yeah right! I'm going to go to GNC and see what they have for protein powders and try something different I usually go to WalMart but I think GNC will have a better selection. I'm craving something like cake batter tasting in the worse way!

I decided to take a half day off the Friday before I leave for Florida, to get errands done before my flight leaves (we have to leave dbf house at 3:30am to get to Newark Airport OMG!). I figured out my schedule for the day and holy crap here goes:

12pm leave work
12:30 arrive home (probably earlier)
1:30-2pm Wax appointment
2:10-2:30 wrangle cat into cat carrier
2:30-3:30 drop cat off at kitty bed and breakfast go to Coach outlet next to kitty bed and breakfast
4:00-5:00 mani/pedi
5:15-6pm home to go over packing list and put luggage in car
6:30-8:30 hair appointment and stop to liquor store
8:30-9:30 dinner w/ dbf
10:15-?? Hunger Games!
12am-3am watch movies with dbf and get ready to leave for airport

Yeah, so it's going to be a little crazy next Friday. I'm going to do some packing this weekend, I have to make sure the cat doesn't see that I'm packing because he gets all worked up and constipated to the point that I have to bring him to the vet for an enema. I swear to god this cat is like having a kid but worse.

This weekend I'm also going to organize all my owner's manuals for everything. I'm like my mother anything that I buy that comes with an owner's manual gets saved. Unfortunately for me, it's in a drawer no organization whatsoever. My dining room table has also turned into a catch-all for everything, I'm going to orgazine that this weekend too so that dbf and I can start eating meals there instead of in front of the TV.

I guess that's really all to report, I'm getting so boring! But hey, sometimes I have nuggets of advice lol.

Yesterday it was absolutely beautiful in my neck in the woods! So, I decided to start week 3 of c25k at the local outdoor track at the middle school. I did pretty good had to stop a couple of times, but I had the worse headache towards the end. I realized it's because I was tensing up my neck and shoulders and basically grinding my teeth. You run completely different when you're on a treadmill vs when you are off (well I know I do!) but the workout went by quick and it was just a wonderful way to enjoy the weather! And of course today is rainy lol.

Work today is a little crazy it seems like no one knows what they are doing (ie doctor's offices) it's like I'm holding their hands, and this isn't their first rodeo lol.

Tonight after work I'm going to make my baked falafels and General Tso's tofu and then figure out what I'm going to eat next week for breakfast lunch and dinner. I'm not going to lie I'm going to be in "vacation mode" that I may just lean cuisine the week lol. Well, we'll see. I have a TON of chicken recipes but I don't eat chicken anymore. I found these Quorn brand chicken cutlets, they are completely vegetarian, so I think I'm going to try to see how my chicken recipes taste with the Quorn "chicken". Yeah, I think I'll do that for dinner. Lunch may be a lean cuisine lol.

Also I have never made recipes off the top of my head and I did the other day with my crustless quiche, and it tastes interesting---a little watery?? IDK the quiche I did the week before tasted a lot better may do that one again next week.

Well I guess that's all to report today. Hope everyone has a great day!

Well we made it to Monday. This was a tough Monday because of Daylight Savings Time. Totally forgot to replace the batteries in my smoke detector. It's on my grocery shopping list now!

This weekend was pretty hectic. After I got out of work, I walked with a group of women that I take the train with from my job to the train station, which is probably about 1/2 mile walk it's just in a dangerous neighborhood--safety in numbers. I wasn't out of breath and walking a lot faster than the other two lol.

I got home, showered, changed went to the dbf house. We went to the mall I had to pick up some body wash and other things at Bath and Body Works (my favorite store in the mall!) for my vacation later this month. After that dbf wanted to cook for me, but we were both too tired, I treated him to sushi down the street.

Now we go to this sushi restaurant ALL THE TIME this is always my test to see if I have real restriction, alas this time, I could eat sushi, but I was full quick. But, wait let me get to the best part of this story....

The last time I was there I ordered Ketel One and cranberry juice, the woman who made them poured the drinks perfectly. One and I was good. We get seated and asked what we want to drink dbf asks for coke I ask for "ketel one and cranberry". The waiter comes back with a drink menu for frozen drinks and asks "do you want one of these instead?" uh, no I'm good. I go "all you have to do is pour Ketel one into a short glass with some ice and a splash of cranberry juice" I said this in a NICE way. Then I asked for water too because I had a feeling there was a large language barrier here. Five minutes later the waiter comes up and says "we don't have any vodka" I say "what kind of vodka do we have?" he goes "no vodka at all" seriously????? So I ask for a water again. Needless to say it took 5 times to get water for me, and by then I didn't want it bc I don't drink when I eat.

I ordered edamame and this crab salad I'm obsessed with, one thing of shrimp tempura and some sushi. I didn't get stuck, but the band is still there. LOL. So I'm hoping next fill will get me into the "green zone". I paid for our dinner, left a horrible tip (the service sucked!) and as we are leaving the restaurant, there is the bar and guess what is there? KETEL ONE! I hate being lied to! My poor dbf I thought he was going to die laughing. I was pissed. Oh well, maybe next time.

Saturday morning I went to the gym to complete week 2 of c25k (week 3 starts today oh boy) did some laundry, then got ready to go out to dinner with my dbf my friend and her husband. We went to this Mexican restaurant in town, which is way too expensive for what they serve. I felt so bad for my dbf he asked for a taco plate and they bring out these three mini tacos. There really wasn't a lot of food. We had shots of tequila, there killed my appetite. I had shrimp and scallop cerviche wasn't that great.....def won't be going back. Went out to play pool after had more drinks, after that the night was fuzzy......ugh.

Sunday we woke up to a crying cat who was HUNGRY! So we got up, I fed the cat, and we headed up the Newburgh, NY to meet my parents for brunch. My dbf, a smoker, was dying for a cigarette. We went to the truck stop near my house. I got a ton of Powerade Zero and a coke (I was hoping the bubbles would help induce some sort of vomiting----I know it's not good, but I had to throw up!). Ugh they had Easter candy out. I got two reese peanut butter eggs and a cadbury creme egg gosh darn Easter I hate it!

But on a good note, I drank the coke, didn't puke and realized how gross coke is. I used to drink it all the time, now I stay away from sodas.

We got to the diner, had brunch, well actually we all had lunch lol. I ordered a tuna melt and only ate 1 1/2 of the sandwich, didn't touch the fries I was surprised with myself. Maybe this is going to work out!

Got home from that, tried to make breakfast, lunch and dinner for the week. Got as far as breakfast. I'll work on lunch today after the gym (baked falafels) and just have a lean cuisine for dinner (I know they're horrible you don't have to tell me twice!)

Hope everyone had a good weekend!

Well, Friday is here, and two weeks from now I'll be getting ready to go on vacation! Woo hoo!!! So excited about that. Oh yeah and I'll be getting my hair done too that day yay.

Yesterday after my vent things were fine, went home had dinner and decided next week when I make the general tso's tofu not to add that 1/4 cup of rice to the equation. Only the tofu and the broccoli bc the rice may come up next time lol.

Today I had an egg white omlette with veggies and cheese I'm going to see if that holds me over until dinner tonight. I did get some pink grapefruit for an afternoon snack. My md suggested this saying that since it's a fiberous fruit it'll take a while for your pouch and regular stomach to digest it making you feel fuller. Now if you're a noob don't try this until your dr. says it's okay I'm a little leery trying it today, I'll let you know how that goes lol. My ultimate goal is to at least skip one meal to help speed up my weight loss. I only lost a pound this week, that sucks, but I have been eating brown rice with dinner which is a no no.

This weekend is going to be busy. Tonight dbf and I are going to the mall he needs "retail therapy" I need to go to bath and body works to get some shower gel etc for vacation. I'm thinking something cocunut like lol. Saturday I'm going to the gym, cleaning the house, doing laundry, going to try to get a manicure and my eyebrows waxed (if this doesn't happen I'll do it next week). Saturday night we're going out with a friend of mine and her husband to a new Mexican restaurant in town and then go play some pool and darts afterward. Sunday we are driving up to Newburgh, NY to meet my parents for brunch (this will be the first time the dbf has met my dad....yikes!) and I can give them stuff to bring to Florida since they're driving.

Well I guess that's all have a good weekend everyone!