well thanks for all the posts. I don't know what I need or what I am looking for when I put what i'm going through out there like that.
Everything you all say is right. It's like i know it but why am I not acting on it or doing what needs to be done.
I feel so overwhelmed with so many things right now. My mom says women can take on a whole lot more than men and still succeed. Which I've witness first had myself. I'm going thru so much.
I got layed from my job while on disability for my depression. (lets say that was a set back)that happened in November.
I didn't get released by my doctor until this Feb 08.
so.....
layed off because of depression
got depresson under control in about 3 month. still working on it everyday
going to school fulltime. I have to make something of myself. This is the only thing I am happy about. its a burden at times but I won't give it up.
I have to do the mom/wife stuff. housework, homework, pet care, dinner, driver, pretty much everything at home.
I don't work right now because i want to get as far as i can in school and maybe i'll look for something in aug. I'm hoping to have a schedule and everthing undercontrol then. Right?
I know I need to go see my doctor. I feel like I've let him down though. He's a very nice guy. Had good predictions for me. and here I am almost the same weight I was when he operated on me. It's so embarrassing. How can you face your doctor like that? <<<----- advice on this is greatly needed as well.
well, i've revealed awhole lot more of myself than i thought i needed to. so thanks again for everyones advice. I appreciated it anytime some takes the time to read my post and actually say something. it means a whole lot.
__________________ Jessica Banded July 5, 2006 Starting all over w/1st fill in years  6/15/09 fill = 3cc's 0 lbs lost. | 