I've looked around and found no references to what must surely be an issue with addictive personalities....there must be at least a few of us in here.

I've gotten used to crushing a couple pain pills, mixing it with fruit juice, and following it up with a stiff drink in the evenings.

I feel stuck in my tracks. I'll be calling my shrink on Monday and making an appointment. I know what's happening but I feel like I'm watching it from a distance and can't interfere.

I tried the indulge in the old "bingeing" routine last night and I ended up a pound heavier. That pound attached itself to my heart.

The steps to crawling out are imprinted on my brain. I need to activate them. This surgery will be the death of me if I don't quickly replace the old painkillers with the new ones.

Help.

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Mhuire
Banded August 29, 2007
Dr. Richard Wilkenfeld - Conroe, TX
Wearing 2.4 cc in my 4 cc band (after 3rd fill)