.....postOp, for the first time in my life I can remember clearly....I DON'T feel hungry all the time....
For the first time, MOST of my behavior is not driven by eating, by food, by plans to eat, by activities of cooking, shopping for, tasting, or the fantasies of finding that next magic morsel that will satisfy my hunger....
When I do get hungry, it is a slow and predictable onset, with none of the immediate **EAT*NOW** demands that shorted out any other thoughts until I shoveled enough in to temporarily preoccupy the Dragon Within...
And the nature of hunger itself, no longer is a dreadful and horrific controller-of-my-destiny...at times, it in fact is rather pleasurable in the way it begins small and tiny, like the Prelude to the Afternoon of a Faun...and it responds very nicely to a Normo size meal...another First in my life...
There are entire days I don't care whether I ever eat again.
It is so nice to not have the Obsessive/Compulsive Food Dragons controlling my life.
Merry Christmas one and all....
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"Carpe maņana"
*Oldtimers posse: surgery 12/21/04*
My Quest is Victory over the Dragons of Habit, Gluttony, Sloth, Desperation
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