This is my first post here. My surgery is scheduled for this Friday am. I was suppose to have my surgery 3 weeks ago but my doctor got sick as I was being wheeled into surgery and they sent me home. I was rescheduled for last week then he cancelled again. Long story short I switched doctors! I am self pay so they took me right away.
Anyway... The day before my surgery I looked longily at my last soda and taquito from 7-11 and started to cry. I also cried as I pulled away from Mc Donalds at 11:00pm that same night. (I couldn't eat after midnight) I felt like I was saying good bye to a lover. I was actually weeping. I knew then just how messed up my relationship with food was. I felt like the woman who stayed in an abusive relationship even though it was killing her. Food has done nothing good for me but has in fact ruined my life. I think its something I can't live without and that it is the only thing that is ever really there for me. Yeah it's there for me alright, but leaves me hurt and sick every time, just like an unhealthy relationship. I understand what you are going through. I have been in mourning for 3 weeks now. It makes me mad that I am actually mourning food! But it is the painful reality. I want to have my LAP-BAND® to help me attain freedom once and for all. I am tired of always taking back my abuser time and time again. This band will keep me from sabotaging myself and my journey to recovery. I hope that you will be encouraged to say good bye once and for all.
Many blessings,
starting over