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SkyeBlu · 02-18-2006, 05:19 PM

I have had many moments of "oh my gosh what did I do" over the past week! The worst was the other night.....I got into an argument with DH and did what I normally do grabbed the closest comfort food and stormed upstairs, fortunately my food was a chocolate protien shake. I sat down in my room and started to cry because I was so damn angry with him, in between my sobs I took 2 HUGE chugs of my shake (I was 5 days post-op) and OMG it hurt! I got so mad at myself for abusing my body....I got so mad at myself for turning again to food....I got mad at the band for not letting me inhale a bag of popcorn or a twix bar....I got mad at my husband for making me upset. And I cried!

Then I realized I was the most upset about not having the same coping mechanism I have had for 20+ years EATING AND EATING AND EATING when I feel badly. I then was crying because I was mourning food, I didn't fully understand what this meant when I was pre-op...now I get it! I talked to the nurse at my docs office and she told me that not being able to eat when upset/stressed etc is almost as emotionally stressfull as losing a parent. It is something we have loved and relied on for years and years and now suddenly it is not there in the same capacity.

You/we have undergone a MAJOR life altering surgery and it will take some getting used to. Find a new outlet for that stress/emotion that doesn't involve mastication, go for a walk/read a book/call a friend/come here for support but don't go back on the habits that brought us here in the first place!