Amanda-
I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. I was only banded this week, and so I am a full year behind you. I will be praying for you, and please know that you are not a failure. We all make bad choices on occasion. Please know that at least those of us on the blog are not looking for you to fail, but rather are here to cheer you on an encourage you. Please reach out to us, and if you need please private message me.

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