I actually went in for a fill in January and they filled me so tight that as soon as I got in my car (had no water or anything) I couldn't stop throwing up my own saliva. They were having issues filling me (stuck me over 50 times) so we did it at a different doctor's office under fluro. My surgeon had already left to go back to his office, so I drove their immediately. When I got there, they couldn't unfill me after another 50 sticks. Then, we went back under fluro to find out that my port had flipped and was completely detached. We went in immediately to the hospital for emergency surgery so they could unfill me and do the port revision. They had to give me medicine to stop all secretions in my body, just so I could lay down to be put under for the surgery (I couldn't stop throwing up long enough to lay down). Now... it's been 5 months and I haven't had another fill - just too scared.

I feel like such a failure. I've lost approximately 65 lbs. since my surgery last July. I've maintained my weight - lost maybe 5 lbs since being unfilled in January.

I've made poor food decisions, but still have some problems eating - probably 90% my own fault. I can't decide whether I need another fill or not, because my mind keeps playing tricks on me.

Has anyone dealt with anything similar? Any supportive words would be incredibly helpful. Thanks!

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~ Amanda ~

Surgery - July 2nd Dr. Eckles, Murfreesboro, TN

Starting Weight: 286
Current Weight: 223
Band if filled with 5.7 cc's as of 9/25/08