i will do hun and thanks its been so nice being able to talk to someone who is in the same boat as me, and yeh i know what you mean about being able to walk into a normal shop. i went shopping with my partner yesterday and everything i tried on either didnt fit, couldnt find my size or it felt uncomfortable but i think that was when he realised really how unhappy i am so at least something came out of it. ill let you know what my doctor says tonight xx