Re: Mourning food already | |
I had the same thing this weekend, sort of. I was at my grandmothers and my entire family was there working on remodeling her kitchen. They decided to go and get pizza. I left because I'm on the pre-op diet, and I came home and cried. I told my husband that I couldn't really explain it, because I wasn't at all hungry (the hunger stopped after about day 3).
I realized that it wasn't the eating I was going to miss, as much as the socializing. We go to lunch, sit around and talk and laugh. My family is really close and we get togethe weekly for dinners. The holidays are coming up and of course there is tons of food then.
I guess for me it's about not fitting in because I can't eat. This is how I got fat in the first place, by pretending I'm like everyone else and I can eat whatever I want, whenever I want, blah blah blah.
It's hard to come to terms with yourself. I'm having to take a good hard look at who I am and how I am going to have to change. It's scary, but it's worth it in the long run. At least I hope it is. Good luck to you. | 