Sorry to tell you, but YOU DO HAVE AN ADDICTION TO PILLS AND ALCOHOL. I am not judging you, but I fear for you. Your dependence on the alcohol and pills is a serious matter and you are in denial aobut your addiction, and it is just like all of our addictions to food. Its no different. Never mind that this will erode your band; you have much bigger issues that that right now. Please seek help from your doctor and he will be able to help you find a program for these addictions. The first step is to acknowledge that you have a problem. Look how you acknowledged your weight being a problem. Its the same thing. It will take some time and you will do it. Please, you are so young to be going through this and I urge you to find some support through friends and/or family to help you with this struggle. Take care of yourself. Good luck.

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