Okay,
I did not expect to really mourn eating food like I have been. I am 9 days post op and I am able to do mushies. However, since I am the person that normally cooks/prepares meals for the family, my DH has stepped in to make sure the family is fed. He has brought home some of the most wonderful meals. At one point I was even tempted to lick a piece of Sweet and Sour Chicken and I thought, this is sick. I still have gas pain in my shoulder and sometimes it's even hard to distinquish when I am hungry. Sometimes I think it's just regular gas pain or incision pain, but then my stomach will start growling. THIS IS INSANE!! What's wrong with me. I should be estastic that I have finally gotten this done after years of thinking about it and then all of the time I spent preparing. I am afraid this is me self sabatoging like with the other diets. I am also a little overwhelmed by the amount of weight I need to lose, which is also crazy because I have always known how much I needed to lose but it's like I was all prepared to do the work for LAP-BAND® and now I thinking I should have taken the easier/quicker way with gastric. I don't know, I think am just overwhelmed a little bit and just babbling and venting--sorry

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